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Tuesday, September 14th, 2004

Subject:Could you be my nasty girl?
Time:12:47 pm.
I made a new journal. I'm going to try and write in it more often and more truthful I guess. Truthful isn't the right word... it sounds like I've been lying in this one lol That's not what it is. I guess I'm going to try and be as open as possible in this new journal. Not open with other people because that's really not what a journal is supposed to be about, at least for me. More open with myself. Open to write everything down. Even if I don't want to remember it or if I don't want to think about it in that way. I'm going to write it down. My new journal name is Meltedraindrops. Just in case anyone wants to read it. The end.

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Thursday, September 2nd, 2004

Subject:I want to swim with you in the sea
Time:7:44 pm.
Mood: happy.
Jennifer Lopex is on Will and Grace lol It's funny. I haven't watched this show in for fucking ever. Good times. Anyways, what to say... what to say. I haven't written in here in a while so I'm sure there's all kinds of shit to update on but I'm not really in the mood sooooooooo screw that. Work was good today. Osirius spit on me, hit me, pinched me and peed in his pants when I moved him away from the table because he was smacking Rose in the face. lol He's quite the kid. I think I might kill him lol But I am getting somewhere with him. Shani spit at someone today and he said "we don't do that at school, it's gross" so that's a good thing. Now I don't feel like I'm talking to a walk every time I have to wrestle with him to sit on the wall outside. We'll see. Anyways, I'm sitting here thinking about cleaning my room... I probably won't. My back hurts lol And my stupid fucking hands are still hurting. It sucks. I tried to make an appointment but it didn't happen so I'm going to call again. They just hurt all the fucking time. I'm wearing my new army pants (black and white) from Justin. He went shopping today and got me some so that's nice lol They're really comfy. lol Hmmm.... What else to say? I have a lot of kids in my class right now. 16 to be exact. lol The most I can have. Christian is going to be moved up to the next class in the next couple of weeks. That'll be sad. lol It'll be good though. He's too old for my class any more. I think it'll be good for him... but I'll miss him lol *tear* Anyways, It'll be strange to not have him in my class. Hopefully he won't give Chelsea or Kailie too much trouble. He'll break them in, I know that for sure. I'd expect nothing else. We shall see. Mikey, Chloe, Vincent and Yasmeen are all moving up too. It'll be weird but good. They're all ready. It's not like my class will get any smaller though. Andrew, London, Jade and, Moria are all moving up from Little Ducks. My neck hurts from trying to see the computer screen so I have to go now lol

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Sunday, August 15th, 2004

Time:10:01 pm.
Mood: hot.
Well, I had s econd to write in here so I thought I'd take it considering I never do. It's sunday after the weekend of wedding. It went really well. Aaron and Shelly looked amazing, just amazing. It was beautiful. Her dress looked perfect. Brittany's mini version of her dress looked amazing lol The bridesmaids look great. It was all so pretty. One of those weddings where you just feel like smiling the whole time lol And I wasn't sure it would be like that considering who it was. Aaron was nice... he thanked us when we left. He was nice. And he was adoring of Shelly all day and night... which was pretty much his only job lol He did good though. The reception went really well too. It was a blast. Everybody danced their asses off. They did a bunch of line dances of course... because that's what that family does lol Aaron and Shelly were smashed by the end of the night which was entertaining enough lol All in all, it was really good. Hopefully the video will turn out good too. We got some really good shots so I don't think there will be any problems. I'm hurting my neck looking up at the computer screen here lol.
Colleen and Sonya are in Californina at the moment so hopefully they're having fun. Judging from their very short journal entries, they seem to be. So that's good. I didn't get to see them before they left so that's sad. I'm sure they're having fun though... roadtrip, the ocean and beach. What more could you want? lol
Joe came home today so that's good. He went to glenwood springs with William. He hated it and he's so glad to be home lol He starts school tomrrow. Lakewood. That'll be weird lol How bizarre to have him going to Lakewood now.
My head kind of hurts and I need a shower so I'm going to go do that shit.

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Saturday, August 14th, 2004

Time:1:48 pm.
Fuck me... I'm online! lol Craziness... just crazy. It's been for-fucking-ever since I've been online. I'm in an amazing amount of pain at the moment... I have the worst cramps I think I've ever had... They woke me up because they hurt so much. Makes me sad. They're better now than they were before but jesus... they hurt. It's the kind of cramps that make me feel sick to your stomach too. LIke... they hurt like crampy and they make me feel like I want to puke. Fun stuff. Anyways, it's Sonya's birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONYA! I have to go pick up my aunt from the airport today so that sucks. But it'll be fine. Hmm... What else? OH, I dyed my hair really red... .finally. Not many people like it but that's ok lol It just fits me better if people don't like it. Oh god... I really feel like I"m going to puke. I can't write any more. I have to go lay down or something. Adios people... I"M BACK ONLINE! lol oh man.

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Sunday, June 13th, 2004

Subject:So you say it's your birthday.. DUN DUN DUN DUN DUN!
Time:11:45 am.
Mood: okay.
Well I have tons of things to write about in here but first off, I have to write about Frank calling me because he just did and I'm angry so I have to. He calls and asks for my mom and I tell him that she's not here. He starts to want to ask where she is and I say "I'll have her call you when she gets home" And he says ok and that she should call his cell. Then...
Him: So what's up?
Me: Nothing.
Him: Nothing?
Me: no.
Him: Well we should go out to dinner together or something, no use in us being mad at eachother all the time.
Me: Um.. ok *small chuckle*
Him: Well why do you have to get like that?
Me: Well just because really any time we try to talk or anything, you end up hanging up on me or calling me a fucking bitch.
Him: I never said "fuck you bitch."
Me: Yes, you called me a fucking bitch and you told me to bite you.
Him: Well I don't know what was said but you were really mean to me.
Me: I don't call you names... I don't call you to hang up on you.
Him: I didn't call to hang up then.
Me: I don't call your house to start shit.
Him: The only time I called to start shit was when you egged my stuff.
Me: Mom explained that to you.
Him: Yeah. she did and it seemed pretty weak to me.
Me: Well it was the truth.
Him: Well it hurt me.
Me: Yeah... You hurt a lot of people.
Him: Yeah and a lot of people hurt me. And if you ever want to hear the full story, I'd be happy to sit down and tell you about it.
Me: Oh I've heard it.
Him: You don't know it all. I haven't told you everything and your mom probably hasn't.
Me: I don't call to hang up on you, I don't call to start shit with you and I don't call you names. And you're the adult.
Him: You're an adult to and if you want to be treated like one then you need to act like one.
Me: Well if you want to be treated like a parental figure then you need to act like one. *Hangs up*

I'm not playing any more.
Anyways, last night was so much fun. We gave Colleen her "sex party"... bought her a bunch of porn shop stuff.. Good times. lol The warming lotion stuff was definitely a hit lol Very cool stuff. I had fun playing the dice game... good times. Definitely some interesting stuff going on. I can't say that Amy has ever touched my butt before, have I kissed Liz before or licked Colleen neck. It was fun. I'm glad I didn't have to do anything to Marty because that would have just been awkward lol! Anyways, we had a lot of fun... I hope Colleen enjoyed it. She deserved a party and definitely deserved the gifts ;) lol I have so much shit to clean up but that's ok lol I'm going to go do it as soon as I get off the computer which will be soon lol Happy 19th year Colina! I hope it's a great one.
Also... I need to write a little bit about the strip club on Wednesday lol I can't say that I've ever had a girl grind on me like that before.. interesting stuff. I can't say that I didn't like it. Ok, some of them I definitely did NOT like lol They were rough or scary or whatever but some of the others were nice. It didn't turn me on because girls just don't really do it for me all that much but it was nice. Comfortable in the sense of a blanket being comfortable I guess... if that makes sense. A blanket doesn't turn you on or do anything for you but it can still feel nice. And jesus Christ... I definitely didn't expect to be laying on the table with a girl other me and her pussy in my face like that lol That was a surprise to say that least. Entertaining of course. lol It was fun. Colleen got so uncomfortable which was fun to watch. Justin too. They get so... tense lol Makes me laugh. But I guess it's nice to see in a way... your boyfriend get tense when other girls grind on him lol I didn't really get all that jealous. I mean some of them I was like "OMG! Did that just happen?" lol But it wasn't a jealous thing. And of course there were moments of self- doubt but I was reassured easily. Shocked the hell out of all of us when that like second stripper put her head in his lap and pulled the dollar out with her teeth. I think Nichole's face was one of the funniest. Her jaw just dropped... mine too lol We had fun. I think Colleen had fun... scared her a little but had fun lol All in all, I think she had an ok birthday... I hope lol I have to go clean up now.

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Wednesday, June 9th, 2004

Time:1:12 am.
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Monday, May 31st, 2004

Subject:I'm only happy when it rains
Time:6:15 pm.
Mood: happy.

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Sunday, May 30th, 2004

Subject:But you crossed the fucking line
Time:12:27 pm.
Mood: bitchy.
Me: Hello
Frank: Hi, how are you?
Me: Fine and you?
Frank: Doing good, just hanging out over here. Hey I wanted to talk to you. I'll clean the egg off this trailer if you clean it off that van.
Me: What Van?
Frank: The one in front of your house.
Me: There isn't any egg on the van.
Frank: Yeah, there is and it really hurt me that you did that. Can you just clean it off?
Me: I'll see if I have time.
Frank: Oh jesus, Can you just do it?? It was pretty crappy of you to do that anyways.
Me: I'll see if I have time.
Frank: Let me talk to somebody else.
Me: Who would you like to talk to?
Frank: Anyone but you.
Me: *hangs up*

Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, fuck you. Can you ever call here and just simply fucking say "Hey, is your mom there?" "Hey, can I talk to Joe?" Leave me the fuck alone. How difficult is that? Do I call his house and start shit? No. Do I go over there and call him names? NO!!! Who is the child here? I'm 19 years old and he doesn't live here any more so I don't fucking have to take his shit any more. I'm done. I'm done answering the phone when it's him. I'm done with trying to be civil when he comes to pick up the boys. I'm fucking done with this bullshit. It's ridiculous and I don't have to put up with it any more. I quit. FUCK HIM!!!!

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Thursday, May 20th, 2004

Subject:I do it all for you
Time:7:04 pm.
Mood: good.
If there is one person you can't stop thinking about, post this same exact sentence in your journal.
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Subject:Come on and take it off
Time:7:03 pm.
Mood: content.

You Do It Like Beyond 2000 Plus!

You could write the sex section of Cosmo...

Because you've got sex moves no one's heard of

And while you've been accused of having your PhD in Sexology

You're mad skills are simply a matter of practice and determination

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Monday, May 17th, 2004

Subject:Just like that old time rock 'n roll
Time:6:30 pm.
Mood: bitchy.
You call me a fucking bitch and expect me to come over and be all friendly? You tell me to bite you and hang up on me and then expect me to make conversation? You're fucked up... completely and totally fucked up. Bi-polar, mid-life depression, fucking crazy... all these things come to mind. Leave me the fuck alone or I will be forced to let you know, once again, all the things I think about you. Also, if you're going to fucking play nice and pretend that you want me to come to your pretty new house... Don't give everyone a room but me. Eat me? Fuck off. The end.

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Monday, May 3rd, 2004

Subject:I won't worry my life away
Time:9:33 pm.
Mood: pleased.
1.Go into your LJ's archives.
2.Find your 23rd post (or closest to).
3.Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4.Post the text of the sentence along with these instructions

We each got a drink and he was like "No calling card?" I was like "Nope" And he said, "Aw.. good good, Give up on him?"

Well it's like one big long run on thing so I thought I'd post the whole thing... about Jack at the gas station... that's funny lol I didn't even remember that happening.. crazy to go back in your entries and see shit like that lol Makes me laugh and think. Love it. Well I'm obviously back from vacation.. It was a blast. We had so much fun and It was awesome to see all my counsins. They're all so big now. Ellena is huge and Syd too. Ben's talking up a storm. Deb was telling us about them going to the zoo and Riley was telling Ben to hurry up and she was like "Come on Ben, you're a slow poke." And Ben was like "Your mom's a slow poke" lol That's fucking awesome. lol Crack me up. They're all so smart... I know I'm bias but jesus they seem so quick lol We ended up staying at everyone's houses. Which was good but kind of tricky to move every night. I was so glad everyone got to meet Justin and that Colleen finally got to go out there with me, she's already met most everyone. They all liked Justin a lot and he got along with everyone too which I'm very happy about. I love that I got to let him meet all of them. My family's always been important to me so I'm glad he got to be a part of that part of my life too. I always had images of hanging out with my family and having them meet my boyfriend so it's nice to let that happen. Anyways, I think we're going to Marty and Nicole's to help with their bathroom. lol Should be a blast. Crazy to think we haven't seen them in a week. Seems like we at least talk to them every other day or so. Adios.
Oh yeah... I went back to work today. My kids were pretty good to me actually. Christian gave Theresa trouble and was dramatic but they were all happy to see me. I walked in the door and Lori and Nicole were right there and they started cheering. lol It was funny. They told me I could never leave again. Then I went outside and Theresa says to me "If you ever leave me again, I'll go crazy!" lol It was funny. I definitely felt loved. Then some stupid pyschologist woman came to look at Andrew in SF... She's dumb but beside the point. She told Lori that I was amazing with Andrew and the rest of the kids... Lori came in and told me and said that she agreed. Nice to hear... Very nice to hear. I need to get going on that CDA stuff... But right now I have to go to Marty and Nicole's lol

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Thursday, April 15th, 2004

Subject:I've still got sand in my shoes and I can't shake the thought of you
Time:9:16 pm.
Mood: thoughtful.
Frank "moved out" last night. Took some clothes to a hotel.. well, the office last night. Hotel room tonight. He came and picked up the boys to hang out there for a while tonight because Jesse and Tristan wanted to see where he was staying. Don't know how long he'll be gone or if he'll be coming back. Apparently the decision to leave was a little less than voluntary on his part... My mom told him to leave. Fucked up stuff. Screen door is broken again so Justin took it off for us. He took Jesse and Tristan to school yesterday when Frank flipped out and took the Excursion and didn't come back in the morning to take the boys to school. Justin dropped me off at work too... We'd have been pretty screwed if he hadn't. I'm tired and it's been a weird day. My mom has been very strange.. weird feelings all day I guess. They're not talking. I'm not sure what's going to happen but he better fucking grow up.
Colleen just called and wants to go do something. I want to go.. I really do but I don't know. I feel bad leaving my mom. I feel bad ditching Colleen too thought. I don't know. I'm tired.
Happier news- had my review today. Went great and I got a small raise. She said it's the biggest raise she's allowed to give. She told me she was very happy with how well I was doing and all these nice things. It's nice to be appreciated... because it's painfully obvious that I don't do if for the money. I was on the playground today walking with one of my kids and Chris says out of the blue "you really are so good with all these kids. You must be so incredibly patient" Funny... I don't think I've ever heard that I'm patient as much as I do now. But I've always said it... I'm not good with people, animals... even fucking plants but children, I can do. Yasmeen wouldn't go into our classroom today because I wasn't in there. I was talking my kids to the bathroom. She came right to me in the bathroom. I love my job. It kicks my fucking ass and I love it. And I'm good at it. I know you're supposed to wait for someone else to tell you that but I know I am. I'm damn good at it and I knew I would be. I love my devil-children lol
It's been a long ass time since I wrote in here and I think it may have helped my mood a little bit. Now I have to go appologize to Justin for snapping at him. I hate that I take shit out on him but I love how much he'll take for me... he'll do anything to make me feel better. It shocks the hell out of me sometimes.. the things he'll do for me. Ok.. I have to go figure out what I'm doing. The end... or hopefully the beginning.

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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004

Subject:I would fly you to the moon and back if you'll be, be my baby
Time:6:53 pm.
Mood: chipper.
Vegas was soooo much fun. We went to four different shows including Blue Man Group and a top-less show. It rocked lol We had a blast... we were going all four days and my legs hurt so much lol I can't believe how much we walked. We walked/ran all over the place. We went to the Coke store too which was awesome lol I got some Coke PJ's to match my jacket lol Cute. Anyways, we had so much fun and I was totally comfortable with his mom and sister so that's good. We ended up sleeping in the same bed which I thought would be weird but it wasn't too bad. I loved going around Vegas with Justin. He didn't gamble too much but some and he ended up ahead so that's good. I'm so glad I went.
My kids were awful for Theresa... I feel bad. I guess Christian hates her. Nichole told me that he was just flat out mean to her.. yelling, kicking at her, hitting her. She took the day off today to rest... lol Jesus Christ, she's not going to last. lol The end... BOWLING NIGHT!!!

Miss Cassie... back from Vacation lol
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Thursday, March 18th, 2004

Subject:I don't want to grow up, I'm a toys-R-us kid
Time:7:01 pm.
Mood: good.
Great minds discuss ideas, good minds discuss events, small minds discuss people.

Entertaining lol
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Monday, March 8th, 2004

Subject:There was nothing left to say and that's alright
Time:8:21 pm.
Mood: excited.
Well I'm home for once at 8:30 at night so I thought I'd update considering I never do any more and truthfully I miss typing lol How sad. I don't miss the people I talked to or the writing in my journal all that much... I miss the typing lol Anyways. I'm talking to Derek at the moment actually. I forgot how entertaining he is so that's fun. Justin's stopping by school so I'm just waiting for him to do that and then come over. Tomorrow is his birthday and we're going to dinner with his family so that'll be fun. I threw him a party on Saturday here at my house and I think he had fun. lol It entertained me. We all danced and screwed around all night and then had dinner. Tortellini. Good stuff. Anyways, then everyone started slowly leaving and my family got progressively drunker so they left too lol I slow danced with Justin a little bit and then we went in the hot tub. It was so nice. My feet hurt like a bitch from being on them all night so he rubbed them. We ended up going back to his house and spending the night. Then we had a little fun haha.. that sounded whore-like. Anyways, It was lots of fun.. I wanted to do something nice for him for his birthday. It's his 21st.. that's kind of a big one lol I think we're going to Vegas for a weekend so that'll be fun too. I love birthdays lol I really do. And I'm not really sure why.. I guess everyone deserves a day dedicated to them specifically. Well I think I'm going to go work on some of that group-leader certification stuff and I'm not sure. We shall see.

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Sunday, February 22nd, 2004

Subject:Cold late nights so long ago
Time:11:14 am.
Mood: amused.
Step 1: Open your Real, iTunes, Winamp or other music player.
Step 2: Put all of your music on random.
Step 3: Write down the first 20 songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing.

1) J-Kwon- Tipsy
2) Blackstreet- No diggity
3) Kelly Osbourne- Papa don't preach
4) Sara Maclaughlin- I will remember you
5) Save Ferris- Come on Eileen
6) Shakira- Objection
7) Limp Bizkit- Just drop dead
8) Moby- Natural Blues
9) Cardigans- My favorite game
10) Lil Kim- Magic Stick
11) Melissa Ethridge- I'm the only one
12) Lifehouse- Breathing
13) Paula Cole- Where have all the Cowboys gone?
14) Sheryl Crow- Every day is a winding road
15) Donna Lewis- I love you
16) Lili Haydn- Come here
17) Story of the year- Until the day I die
18) Soul Decision- Faded
19) Eminem- Hailie's song
20) Heart- Magic Man

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Subject:I believe in miracles
Time:11:11 am.
Mood: hot.
Cassandra is the #269 most common female name.
0.072% of females in the US are named Cassandra.
Around 91800 US females are named Cassandra!
source namestatistics.com
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004

Subject:You save me and I will save the day
Time:4:03 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Train- Save the day

Ten pounds too much to the naked eye
I don't take the bus because she drives
Watermelon lipstick, and way too much
She got buttermilk smile and a thorny touch
Street smart, like a Courtney Love
Can't get enough Hollywood stories of
Anybody famous that can make her feel
Like they're all kinda friends in a way
No best friend, well one but she's crazy
Grew up to end up a Professor of lazy
The last of six kids that all left town
Seems nobody ever wanted them around
But she's cool like a soda can sittin' on ice
Always orders sushi, only eats the rice
Talks about J Lo like they're best of friends
I think she loves me, but it all depends

Hey baby, I don't wanna be your Superman
I just wanna be your man and I'll be super, baby
You'll be standin' in the sun shine
I'll be standin' right here in the rain
You save me and I will save the day

I got a sweet gig rakin' in the cash with karaoke
I get the crowd goin' when I sing the hokey pokey
I shake it to the
left and then I shake it to the right
What's not to love, man I'm on tonight
I got the LA stylie with the New York trim
Keep my pants so low
It's like I'm goin' for a swim
I got the Coppertone tan, like in Mexico
Well, not now but when I go, yea

I know you don't see me like a movie star
And it can't help much that I don't have no car
But you're my favorite thing, by far
That's gotta count for something
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